okay, okay. that’s what i need to do. turn my full scope inwards. i’ve been exhausting myself worrying about the whole world! all it’s made me is bitter and confused, with a side helping of helplessness. it feels selfish, though, doesn’t it? but i can’t help anyone unless i’m fit to help, and i can’t be fit if i’m neglecting myself.

oh, i have been neglecting myself. my room is a reflection from inside, and a tornado would make it less chaotic.

mm-hm, i’m dreaming again

i usually don’t remember my dreams at all, though i did much more when i was younger. but lately i’ve been waking up tired, as if i’ve done so many things in my sleep, gone so far away…

here’s a list of things i could be doing instead of driving myself crazy

• drawing
• painting
• learning math
• learning guitar
• exercising
• working on my website
• working on my portfolio
• playing with zeus, tofu, and/or taeho
• working on my notebook
• writing essays
• contributing to the wellbeing of others
• l i t e r a l l y a n y f u c k i n g t h i n g

i wanna get a bunch of different photos taken of me doing crazy things and put them in an album so my descendants will think i was a total badass

• pic of me hugging a tiger
• pic of me getting my face crushed into concrete by a cop’s knee but i’ll be smiling and giving a thumbs up
• pic of me sky diving without a parachute
• pic of me swimming with sharks
• pic of me riding an elephant in the forests of thailand
• lots of pics of me at ancient temples pyramids etc
• pic of me with a glowing crystal skull
• pic of me with an army of undead at my command