I’m one of those people who can’t interact with people I find super fuckin duper physically attractive. It’s okay. One day I won’t be afraid.
UGHHHHH story of my life. WHY?? can we discuss this?? i’ve been doing a lot of thinking and i think it’s because i become hyper-aware of the fact that everything is a performance, i get SO self-conscious and am literally unable to be myself until i hate them. i’m able to get to a certain point with people i really like, but it’s not like i just go around fucking people, i go YEARS in between getting any physical love and “skin thirst” is a real thing; and i have so much, SO MUCH love to give that it pours out all over the first person who lets me, and it’s too much, too much, i constantly worry about drowning them and my constant worry destroys my personality